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volume 6
chapter 33
By Natsuki Takaya
Hana to Yume Comics
publisher: Hakusensha
ISBN 4-592-17166-7
390 yen
p. 67
A young Akito holding Kyou's bracelet: This is Kyou's real body? But it's so ugly and bent out of shape? (covering his nose with his sleeve) And what's this? What a nasty smell. It smells like something's going rotten. This is the cat spirit's original form?
p. 68
(Touru stares at Kyou's form, speechless.) [Translator's note: The best description I can come up with is to say that Kyou looks like a mutated cat/lizard--definitely not a pretty sight.]
p. 69
Touru: (still in shock) ........ Kyou........ ........kun
p. 70
A young Akito: How disgusting.
(A picture of Kyou's human face with teeth clenched.)
(Kyou suddenly leaps away from Touru and Kazuma.)
Touru: !!
p. 71
(Kyou runs away from Touru and Kazuma, bounding through the tops of trees. Rain is still pouring down.)
Kyou: I was seen. They saw me. I was seen. It's over. It's over. Everything. Everything's ruined.
p. 72
Kazuma: (looking into the distance) ..... .....That was the other form that Kyou was hiding. Only people possessed by the cat sign also have that other unnatural form. ..... Were you... repulsed by it? Were you scared by it?
p. 73
(Touru doesn't answer Kazuma. Instead, she runs into the forest after Kyou. Shigure and Kagura watch silently from their respective windows. Kazuma picks up Kyou's bracelet in the grass.)
p. 74
Kazuma: (closing his eyes) Would you please heal him?
(Yuki watches Touru run into the forest from his bedroom window.)
p. 75
(Touru throws up at the base of a tree because of the stench.)
Touru: The stench is unbelievable. The air is filled with the smell of something rotting... Even throwing up doesn't help.
Touru: A smell I've never smelled before. A form I've never seen before. That was Kyou-kun. Another form of Kyou-kun.
p. 76
Touru: I have no idea what to do, or what's going on, or about what should really be done.
Touru: It hurts......
Touru: (tears well up in her eyes) But........ but...
p. 77
(Kyou is sitting next to some rocks in a small clearing. Memories of his mother flash through his mind.)
Kyou's mother: Kyou...... Did something happen again? ...What's wrong? Did Akito say something to you again? ...It's alright.
Kyou: (in the present) Stop it.
Kyou's mother: Because I love you.
Kyou: (gouging a rock with his claws) Stop it!!
p. 78
Kyou: .......I'm sick of that......
Touru: Kyou-kun...... (Touru steps into the clearing, looking bedraggled and soaked to the bone) ........Kyou......kun......
Kyou: Don't come near me!!
p. 79
Kyou: What...... what are you doing...... Following me like this. What are you doing......
Touru: Kyou......
Kyou: I said don't come near me!! What's wrong with you?! Can't you see? Can't you smell?!
p. 80
Kyou: It's disgusting, isn't it?! It's repulsive, isn't it?! Why can't you just leave me alone... I don't want your pity!!
Kyou: Please. Please don't.
Touru: Kyou-ku... Kyou-kun... but, (reaching out her hand to Kyou) but I......I
Kyou: (knowing what she was going to say) Don't touch me!!!
p. 81
Kyou: Don't make this any more pitiable
(Kyou lashes out blindly with one arm. Touru sits back in shock. Her shirt is shredded at the shoulder by Kyou's claw.)
Kyou: ...Go away.
p. 82
Kyou: You make me sick!! You're such a pest!! Next time I'll slash your face into a million pieces!! Go away!!
(Touru just sits there, looking dumbfounded.)
Kyou: If I was going to lose her, then I would hurt her as much as possible. Ruin her.
p. 83
(Touru slowly gets to her feet.)
Kyou: Hurt her so much that she would never again want to concern herself about me, to the point that she would never worry over me again.
Kyou: I can't take it anymore. I can't take losing things, and being pitied. I can't stand everything pushing down on me, and these feelings of pity.
Kyou's mother: (in a flashback talking to a young Kyou) That's not true. You're human! It's just that for a very short time, you are put under a bad magic spell and you turn into that other form.
p. 84
Kyou's mother: (kneeling down in front of a young Kyou) As proof of that, look... Soon afterwards you always return back to this form. I'm not scared one bit.
Kyou: No. The truth is that you were scared, weren't you? That's why you would check how many tens of times a day to make sure I was wearing my bracelet, isn't it?
Kyou's mother: I brag about you to all the other mothers.
Kyou: No, you didn't. If you did, then why didn't you ever take me outside?
Kyou's mother: You're so cute that I won't show you to anyone.
Kyou: You were embarrassed, weren't you?
Kyou's mother: No, I love you.
p. 85
Kyou's mother: (smiling) I would die willingly, if it was for your sake.
Kyou: Why were you always saying things like that? Why were you always trying to display your "motherly" love like that without recognizing the real me?
??: Your mother loved you more than anyone else!!
Kyou: Stop it!!
(Touru stands at the edge of the clearing.)
Kyou: Stop forcing your love on me. I don't need that. I don't need it. It's okay to be scared. In the end, together I, I just
p. 86
(Touru turns around, a defiant look on her face.)
Kyou: (Touru is holding onto his right arm) ?!
Touru: ...Let's go home. You must...come home. You have to.
p. 87
Touru: I have a feeling that Kyou will not return to that house. Ever again.
Touru: You have to......
Kyou: Stop. Let go... Just understand......
Touru: I do not understand.
Touru remembers what Kazuma said: Were you scared by it?
Touru: ........ I'm...scared... The Kyou in front of me is a shape I've never seen before. Even though I hear your voice now, it doesn't seem as if it's Kyou. It's scary......
p. 88
Touru: But... but, but from now on, I want to try and understand...
(The rain has finally let up.)
Touru: From now on, in the same way that you always listened to my complaining, I want to hear what your complaints are......
Touru: I absolutely won't allow Kyou to suffer by himself.
Touru: Painful things, scary things, things you are weak at--I want you to tell me about them. I want you to let me worry about them.
p. 89
Touru: Because I want us to live together... To eat meals, study, ...and worry together. Just like before, from now on, together, together I want us to live like that.........!!
Touru: It was selfish of me to say that. But didn't you say before, Kyou-kun?
p. 90
Touru: Didn't you tell me, "It's okay to say something selfish once in a while"?
Kyou: (finally returning to human form) It...it would have...been okay if...she didn't love...all of me... ...It's okay to be scared of me......
p. 91
(Touru is still holding onto Kyou's arm.)
Kyou: I had wanted us to sit down and think about it... To suffer through it together.
Kyou: It's okay to be scared. It's okay not to love that ugly body. But still, for all that
Kyou: (tears welling up in his eyes) I wanted her to say, "Let's continue our lives together."
p. 92
p. 93
(Touru's eyes are wide open in surprise.)
Kyou: ........Touru
(The sun starts to shine through the trees.)
Kyou: Touru......
p. 94
(Kyou has transformed into his cat form and is asleep(?) in Touru's lap.)
Touru: Kyou-kun...?
Kyou: Why does someone like you stay by my side? And cry for me?
p. 95
(Kazuma looks at the sun coming out, and sees Touru stepping out of the forest.)
p. 96
Kyou: Why do I hope to hold this time precious, and desire to stay by her side?
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Kyou: Being scared would have been evidence that she was also really seeing the ugly part of me. But that person only tried to cover it up with her love. She never tried to think about it. Tainted with philanthropic intent, did you really think it would be enough to just keep saying you loved me?
Kyou: (reaching to embrace Touru) That sort of thing sounded foolish. I thought for sure that no one would ever say it to me.
Kyou: (crying into Touru's hair) So I had always thought.
Kyou: And that's how you melt one by one the ugly feelings and muddy thoughts I hold inside.
Kyou: Why am I wishing for that? I don't have the right to do that anymore. The very fact that she is near me is a mistake, but even so, but even so
(Touru walks toward Kazuma, cuddling Kyou (still a cat) in her arms. Kazuma gives a sigh of relief and smiles.)
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Translated by Dawn Kolk
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